I can’t stay here anymore.
I can’t stand this mess of a life.
I want to run away from it all.
Far away from the pain that entangles me in despair and grief.
I want to run from myself.
I’m needy.
Frustrated.
Confused.
Angry.
Flawed.
I’m a complete mess.
It’s time for a change.
It’s time to move on.
It’s time to stop wrestling, stop doubting, and just believe.
It’s time for me to walk in the purpose for which You have created me.
But what about my broken heart?
What about this ache that lingers?
What shall I do about this anguish of soul that follows me around like my shadow?
Where do I put the tears?
Where can I hide that is safe?
Lord, what do I do with me?
My life is anchored to Your unrelenting goodness and grace.
Your mercy keeps me and transforms this mess into something beautiful.
Your love paid the price for my freedom – for my life – so that in You I come as I am.
With all my heart, soul, mind, and strength, I press in to You.
I surrender my tattered self and trust You with all that I am.
Because no matter what, You love me as I am.
You love me.