Why does love hurt so much?

The pain of love isolates me.

Lord, I’m scared to love deeply again.

I don’t want to have to say goodbye.

I don’t want to hurt anymore.

My gaping heart needs You.

Please reach down and touch me.

Love can be so risky and chaotic, even dangerous.

I try so hard to guard my heart.

Protect it.

Hide it.

Keep it from suffering even more.

I spend myself trying to keep my heart from breaking into pieces that can’t possibly be put back together again.

Please show me what You want from me, Lord.

Are You testing me?

Take what You see and mold me to reflect You better.

Throw away the pieces of this lump of clay that stiff-arm You.

Burn away the impurities that hinder Your love from penetrating the hurting areas in my life.

Probe my heart and mind, Lord.

If there’s no other way, please crush me into a million pieces for Your glory.

Show me how to love again so I can be free to let Your love flow through me.

Help me to love You with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength. 

Tears of anguish drive me into Your embrace, where Your arms are always open and I am always welcome.

You love me despite all my inadequacies and offenses.

Because loving me is not about me — it’s about You.

It’s about who You are.

You risked it all to love me and display a love so grand.

Lord, help me to risk it all to love You back.