This pain is more than I can bear.
It’s as if I’m dwindling away as each day goes by.
I go through the motions of life, and yet I feel nothing.
I feel absolutely numb.
I feel empty.
My heart continues to beat, yet I’m so dead inside.
I long to wake up from this living nightmare.
Is this it?
Is this the depths to which a broken heart can take you?
Will this be my life?
I look around and see people smiling and laughing, enjoying the simple things in life.
Will I ever experience happiness again?
Will I ever stop pretending and truly enjoy this life?
Is it even possible?
Lord, in this moment I choose to fix my eyes “not on what is seen, but on what is unseen.
For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal” (2 Corinthians 4:18).
Even when You seem so far away, Your Word says that You “are close to the brokenhearted” and You save “those who are crushed in spirit” (Psalm 34:18).
Therefore, I will trust in You and know that You will rescue me.
You are the Lord, the God of all mankind.
You are the fullness I need in this empty place.
You have formed me and know the intimate details of who I am.
You will not leave me broken.
You will carry me and sustain me.
You will take Your mighty, loving hands and securely hold the pieces of my life.
You will fill me to overflowing.
You will accomplish in my heart and life more than I can imagine.
You will mend and make new.