I’m sorry, Lord.
I blew it again.
Why is it so easy to call You “Lord” and yet not live as though I believe the things You say?
My actions really do speak louder than words, and what I say with my life sometimes drowns out what I say with my mouth.
I proclaim to trust You, but when I look in the mirror, all I see is fear and doubt.
Why is it so easy to push You off the throne of my heart?
To believe the lies bombarding my mind?
To see what cannot satisfy?
To wallow in self-sufficiency?
Why do I do this to myself?
I feel so tender and fragile, so easily torn.
Why do I contend with what I know to be true?
I am Your beloved!
You have given me abundant life and shown me kindness, compassion, and mercy.
Lord, in Your great providence each and every day You watch over my spirit.
No temptation has seized me except what is common to man.
And You are faithful.
You will not let me be tempted beyond what I can bear.
But when I am tempted, You will provide a way out for me.
Though I have pleaded for You to take this thorn in the flesh from me, I choose to smile through tear-filled eyes.
As You open Your arms and welcome me as I am, I see afresh that Your grace and love are sufficient.
When You look deep into my soul, at the very things I long to hide, I know I am loved beyond reason.
When You take my trembling hand, I fall into Your warm, winsome heart and feel safe.
Your embrace teaches me to be still.
And as I quiet myself before You, I hear You whisper with a love louder than words, “I love you.”